Homecoming

So yea today im going home.b t dub much needed break because I miss the fam & homies. but also because I feel like Im losing a sense of who I am & why im in school first off. I have high hopes that when I come back I'll be more focused.
P.s im lowkey depressed because I didn't get to go buy my Kanye Cd. I can honestly whole-heartedly say that I LOVE that man...like honestly he's so dope but it's beyond that it's like his music speaks to me on different levels that other music can't.
P.s.s. Sometimes music is the only thing that can bring me back to sanity.

Well..Here you Go

so yea lately i've been feeling like im losing sense of myself. of course we all mature as we get older..well some..but that's not it. I feel like life is flying by me.
this song brings me peace...

Breathe (2 Am) - Anna Nalick

Need A Break

Sometimes I wish I could just use that clicker and pause my life and just take a deep breath. I need a break from life right now. I need to go home and be with family and friends who really know me and not just think they do. Don't get me wrong I love my friends @ skool but I just miss my sissy'z&brodiez. Maybe today is not just a good day. Iono but im homesick right now. Im tired of partying.im tired of all the drunk kids. Im tired of all the fake/whorish dudes. Im tired of boring classes. I just want to relax and not do nothing. Is that so wrong. & honestly just cuz I don't want to do anything doesn't mean you don't have to either. *lightbulb* maybe im not going because I need a break from u. I need my space to damnit! ..ok sorry I know that sounded kinda harsh but it just spewed out of brain/emotions right now. I need a break from these scandalous/whorish/broke using ass mofo's up here. Fareal does it look like I have STUPID written across my forehead HELL NO!.so go find another woman no scratch that u don't want or deserve a REAL WOMAN u can go get a nasty skeezer Cuz ur nothing to me. So yea that's what I feel I need a break from. & to bad I don't feel better even after venting on this thing. Aaarrgghhhh. Maybe I will later. Ggeeessh. I have more to write later so expect another one of these bad boyz.
Im outro partners
2 fingahs & <3

This Gurl caN SAANG!

JAZMINE SULLIVAN! man this is my chick! I LOVE her new song "Need You" ..
WooH when i mean this woma's voice is so BOMB that it gi ves me gOOseBumpS when i hear it man! She is the truth! Im so thankful for her rite now cuz i was getting tired of the same ole same ole ish. Psshh R&B divas better watch out cuz Ms. Sullivan is on the scene! if u havent heard her song then ur LAME and u will continue on the lame path until you have turned on ur ears and tuned out to this upcoming PHENOM!

coming where im from

So yea I haven't blogged in like forever ..with all the THANKS going to work! *sarcasm* but recently a best friend of my was decieved and hurt my someone we called a friend and for her a closest friend. We decided we will not talk to this person right now but I can't just cut someone off without letting them know why.she doesn't owe him an explination but I feel I do cuz yes he did hurt me becuz he hurt one of my best friends but he didn't do the act to me so for me to shut him off w/o telling him why I think would be kinda unfair..and yes u guys might say well he wasn't fair to ur friend when he hurt her so why should I be fair with him.. Thing is I don't know why but my parent always told me if something is bothering u then let it out. And no im not gonna say anything to bust out my fren or him but im jus gonna let him know that I've learned of somethings about that I don't approve of or like. But when I do this I hope she understands where im coming from..man I just don't know how to tell to her cuz I don't want her to be mad @ me cuz her friendship means the world to me she's like my friggin sister! Aagghh man I HATE this!

Good Girl Gone Bad

Man why do guys treat us good girls SUPER grimey but treat the doo doo mamas like they queen sheeba and can't live with out them! ...I don't understand. We do everything for you & yet u do us bad. Maybe we're the stupid ones for believing that you could be different from the rest. U put ur shxt aside from the past just to give them a chance because they begged for one and then BOOM like a bomb it blow up in yo face. Then when the next dude come along ur heart is gonna be Damaged..damaged lol but seriously Im tired of being a good girl cuz shxt @ least I'll have fun while getting in trouble but then iono. I don't wanna change myself. I like being a good girl. Don't get me wrong I do have a "bad" side lol trust me but im not superbad! (Mc Lovin) lol so guys out there who read this don't treat us wrong cuz once we're gone we're gone forever & if you do get us back itz gonna be a long road ahead. & to a certain guy who will be dubbed "daddy" (sissy u kno who lol) u better realize what you have cuz not to sound cocky but im a serious Upgrade from the other girls you dated. So you better put up or shutup. Or maybe this is a sign that I'm supposed to be with a certain someone else. But to all you goobers out there..that like playing with ppl hearts and junk and are liars! Take A Bow cuz u put on quite the show. .
p.s this can go for guys who have been wronged by girls cuz I know there are some skeezers out there. Aaggh I feel better. Lol. Now time to enjoy my goodies from the Bake Sale.
Later
2 fingahs & <3

FxCK YOU!

Im so tired of being nice to people and then out of nowhere they wanna start treating you like shxT!
so you know what? FxCK YOU!! you FxCKIN ASSHOLE!!
At first I thought maybe itz something I did but NOPE
so instead of BLAMING others for problems you have
maybe YOU ARE the PROBLEM!..mmhhmm have you ever thought of that
probably not since you think the sun rises and sets on your ass
aarrgghh you just make me so angry sometimes! Like you forgot who you are
and who I am.

p.s besides this angry little note I'm excited for the Glow in the Dark Tour tONITE!! yay!
N.E.R.D, Lupe, Rih Rih & Yeezy..HERE i COME! lol

p.s.s If you feel guitly while reading this..then you're probably the person im referring to or maybe you just been acting this way towards someone you say love. ..aaghh I feel so much better now! lol :]