HAHA ONCE AGAIN!

sooo yes people once again i have lost respect for someone i held near to my heart! it's funny how peoplw say one thing but then does another...literally...i caught you kissing another girl u DUMB FUCK! so yea im glad that's over...now on to the next one...looook all i gotta say is...hahaha those who know him knows what that means...the thought of him just brings a smile to my face automatically...he's just a boy to be around..*sigh* lol

laughing to keep from crying

wow so yea i found out some disturbing news about a guy im talking to..i don't know why i am surprised this always happens ..i mean ALWAYS..this is why i keep m guard up and don't talk to to dudes because in the end im the one always getting hurt..man FUCK THAT! & FUCK YOU! i was nothing but nice to you. i never hassled you about anything. i even gave you the benefit of the doubt so many times so i guess you can it is my fault for being so stupid and giving them to you..i thought it was all on the girl..thinking o well maybe that girl just likes him and is crazy. but nope it's you ..you fucked up BIG time. i never asked you for anything..all i asked for you to be was real with me and you told me i did not have to worry about that. i should have known better. WOW im like still in shock..i wish you could feel the way i feel right now. Do you know what it feels like to have your heart ripped from you and stumped on with out any remorse. i feel like somebody just hit me with a recking ball in the stomach. This is a feeling i would never wish on my worst enemy because NO ONE deserves to feel this way.

I WAS NOTHIN..NOTHING BUT FUCKIN NICE TO YOU!! & this is how you fucking repay with some bullshit like this. you have no fuckin soul or heart. why couldn't you just be real with me. i honestly thought you were different but i should have listened to my older sister who said "it's the ones you least expect that do you the worse" thanks for proving my sister right.
TRUST ME i will get to the bottom of this and when i do..YOU BETTER PRAY..you BETTER PRAY..that's all i got to say.
FAKE PEOPLE have no place in my life... so get the fuck out..i don't have time.
people would always be like o ariana this guy is cute talk to them but i would say no ..no i can't cause of so and so..ppssh what a fool i was..people would tell me if he doesn't work out there are more fish in the sea and i would tell people but i don't want anyone else..i wanted YOU ... that's why i wish all this was a big lie or that when i get to the bottom of all this bullshit it's not what i expected even though i know it won't work that way..because in some weird way i still want you..but sometimes what we want isn't what we need....

2 fingahs & <3

Crazy Crazy Crazy...

This is how I feel right now..like seriously I feel like my brain is on overload with just random things..thoughts about cartoons, thoughts about food, thoughts of him, thoughts of what the hell im going to wear tomorrow..ugh. I want my brain just to take a break and breathe but NOPE not gonna happen so I guess my crazy thoughts and hormonal frenzy will continue til tomorrow..men are lucky that their "mother" doesn't come to visit them every month!
Hahahahaha sissy I said "mother" just like you hehehe im stilling your word.

2 fingahs & <3

its about that time...

Aaahhhh .My moodiness is about to come..
Omg. Im so friggin irritated right now! I just honestly wanna choke the hell out of someone then just cry and then just lay down and fall asleep.

Yeap im moody!.
Ugh. I hate this....

don't you think...

I get irritated when you ask me the same question everyday. Like you know I haven't talked to "that" person like all day.so why ask it everyday!..
Don't you think I wish I would have talked to "that" person today & that I miss them...
That I want to see him.but can't..
That I get insecure sometimes knowing he goes to a different school & I can't see what he's doing w/ who knows
Don't you think..
That I feel LAME sometimes for even thinkin like that..
I fall for people fast and hard even though I try my hardest NOT too
Don't you think...
That sometimes always trying to see the good in everyone bites me in BUTT!
I feel foolish because I still like him although some of my friends think I shouldn't
I wish he didn't have control over my mood sometimes..
I wish all these thoughts wouldn't go through my head all the time when im asked that question..
so have you talked to "__________" today?
But I simply reply..No..

2 fingahs & <3

I Dream...

delightfuly confused..

Have you ever been delightfuly confused?...like you don't know what's going on but you're enjoying it...like other people may think it's weid but you just find it intriguing..hhmm idk tho.

Ugh. Tho my internet still doesn't work. Ggrrrr. O well I still have my kicker! Lol

& it's almost my KiMMie Poo BirThdaY! Yayyy! I love my Minnesota Boo BOo! Like seriously she's officially one of my sisters!
MiNnEsoTa U BEEZIES!! =]